Fall Semester

the only truth's on last week's blog are 2/5/6 ;)


This semester of school is actually somewhat bittersweet. This semester of school means I have been in college for one whole year total. Im not quiet as successful as I thought I would be this semester and thats the bitter part about it, but at least I know now where im headed. Community college is not entirely for me but at least I tried, and im still striving; although I know I'll probably  end the semester with not so great grades. In the end at least I know myself has tried.

I ask myself almost everyday, " Why didn't you just try harder in high school, and go to college?" I try and not let myself down because this path I've chosen is not so bad, and I have so much time to improve. By the end of this semester I plan on going onto vocational schools, since it's more hands on, and since I have done it before and I benefited more from it than anything. I know some time down the road I will end up back in community college, but I will be just that much closer to getting into a 4 year, or better yet my career. People say im young and have a long time but it's hard not to compare myself to the people that are not even 25 and already have a career.

The older I get the more i realize parenting may have had been a big deal for me since my parent's are, and were almost always busy. I lived life the way I wanted and with no guidance, and I still wonder how it would have been if my parents were more guiding. I don't blame my parents for their sacrifices, but now I know I live for my future family, and a better life. Twenty years old, and I've always felt I needed to rush my life. I have had many set backs, especially since this year I can't drive till 2013.

Im hoping 2013 will be my year of health and success, it's time i put myself first. Community college isn't for everyone but this won't be the end for me.

hello :}